Excuses, Loss and a Nugget of Truth

EXCUSES!!   Everyone makes excuses. It's our human nature to make excuses (think Adam & Eve). But I am going to state this as fact.  I have not made this blog important enough to work on it regularly. I make time to read my Scriptures and study them, do laundry, cook, eat, spend time with my grandson, take a shower, go on dates with my hubby, attend my monthly Fibromyalgia Support Group meeting, text my kids and my friends and lots of other things. So,if I had been truly serious and this blog was a priority then there wouldn't be months between posts.  THAT is changing!  I have learned and experienced so much in  life that I simply HAVE to let some of it spill out to all of you readers.  Some posts may be short, some  horribly long.  On the average they will be...well, average length, whatever that means.  One last thought on excuses before I move on.  We DO find time for the things that are important to us, from the mundane to the noble.  I resolve to stop making excuses and start making things happen!  Or at least be honest enough to confess that I just didn't place a high priority on (fill in the blank).

LOSS.  A month ago yesterday we had to let our sweet rescue Beagle girl, Jayne, leave us.  Breast cancer that metastasized to her lungs.  She was healing beautifully from her surgery to remove the huge tumor.  The vet hoped he had given us months to years more time with her.  She passed 7 weeks post surgery.  Once it took hold in her lungs she went from first symptom to last breath in less than a week.  A week in which I put most of my life on hold and spent my time cuddling her, petting her, taking her outside to enjoy the sun and wind, simply telling her what a special gift she was to our family.  She quit eating on Wednesday. The last trip to the vet's office came late Saturday morning. John and I were both crying and loving on her as she got the first sedative so that we could say our good-byes, then the final shot that brought stillness to her exhausted body.  Home to a too quiet house.  Missing her snoring.  Missing her welcome home howling.  Missing our walks.  Missing watching her roam our large yard, so proud of "her" territory.  Missing her rolling in the soft grass just for the joy of doing so.  Telling Josiah that Jayne was gone and not coming back.  A 2 1/2 year old doesn't understand "died" nor did we want to use phrases or words that might frighten him about any of us.  So I talked with him.  Jayne is gone and not coming back to Grammas and Pa's house.  She went to live with God in His house in Heaven.  He said "OK" and accepted it.  Then he comes over, looks at her belongings that I haven't put up yet and will tell me he misses Jayne.  I tear up, hold him close and tell him that I miss Jayne too.  Remind him of what a sweet girl she was and how much she loved him.  Some future day another rescued Beagle will come to live with us.  Not now.  Too soon.  She was a wonderful, sweet dog. I miss her.

NUGGET OF TRUTH.*(see disclaimer)  YeHovah, Creator of the universe, gives me promises to cling to in all situations.  This one has been proven out through my loss.  "You (YeHovah) will keep in perfect peace all who trust in you, all whose thoughts are fixed on you!"  Isaiah 26:3  Even as the tears have flowed this past month I have been able to state truthfully that is has been well with my soul.

* I know that my "nuggets" won't always agree with everyone's personal beliefs.  I can only share the truth as I know it and for me that is totally a part of my faith in YeHovah and in His Word, the Holy Scriptures (Bible).  Not all nuggets will be faith based but a LOT of them will.